You overestimate my dilligence. This is the first year I watered the daffs or muscari, and only because I read that they should be kept moist during growing season, they did perk up some. The soil maybe improving because I switched to Sweet Peet and organic compost as mulch which will break down into the soil faster than the hardwood used previously. I do not fertilize, and I only water the grass when I can remember, not the flower beds. It would still be under a deciduous tree - the Maple, but it will not have the same drainage because the bed is totally flat and I'm certain it's all clay. It seems I like this tulip even more now, just my type of flower- it thrives on total neglect. Unfortunately it probably will not survive another spray of chemical vegetation killer that I use to keep the weeds at bay on my slope. If I'm going to save it, it must move someplace off the slope. I think I found another tulip, but it is just the broad leaf - it never flowered at all. Thanks for the comments. Hopefully I can find another suitable location.

Thank you all for your good suggestions. They are all thoughtful and sensible. I wish I could take your advice. I hate to sound like I'm just whining and not willing to try but there are reasons why some things won't work very well. Coolmama, we do have three sweet dogs and they are very dear to me. They are outside dogs and that's good for them because they have lots of room to romp and play but they are not close by like a house dog would be. They are supposed to be guard dogs but they are a little too quick to make friends to be really good at it. I don't care because I love them anyway. Close1972, I would be happy to talk with a counselor but I'm afraid I just can't afford it. My insurance wouldn't cover it and I don't know when I would be able to make an appointment. Do those people work on weekends? The same applies to the cleaning service, Monablair. My job doesn't pay very well although it is the best I can hope for in this area. Since I've been working there I've gotten a raise of 35 cents an hour but my health insurance premiums have gone up about $25 a week. So I'm gradually working my way out of a paycheck. I don't have any retirement plan and will just have to work til I can't work any more. There isn't any possibility to retire for me. I'm just glad that my husband could. He has worked even longer than I have starting with picking cotton and potatoes when he was only 6. I am really glad for him to have the chance to play a little although it would be really nice if he could see that it is hard for me to carry so much of the work at home when you think of my heavy work schedule. At least he isn't one of those husbands who complains that I don't do more! Most work nights I don't cook. We just snack if we are hungry. He is a good cook but he doesn't get around to it and I'm usually so tired by the time I get home that I am not hungry anyway. Thank goodness for that. If I had to stand over a stove after the days I put in I would really get upset. Popi, I'm sure exercise would be good for me. I do better in the summer when I do more in the garden. In winter my arthritis really gives me fits. Exercise would be good for that, too, though and I should do more. We live WAY out in the country so there isn't really any neighborhood to walk in. I don't like to even go outside the fence to the mailbox on account of stray dogs and such but there is room inside the fence to take a turn through the woods. I'm lazy I guess. I just hope housework counts as exercise. You are right about getting down on account of dwelling on this problem a lot. I try to fight it but I do get blue when I think too much about myself and how things are not the way I thought they would be at this time in my life. I have had a hard time with depression in my life and sure don't want to get there again. In a way I guess it is a good thing that I have such a stressful job that keeps my mind completely busy so much of the time. At least that's eight or nine hours a day when I'm not thinking of myself. As for your questions, Popi and Monablair, I've been with my husband for about 15 or 16 years. We have been married for 13 years but we were friends before that. We used to spend a lot of time together and had a lot of fun. I honestly thought we would always be like that. We both worked in the yard or on projects in the house. We cooked together and made jams and candies and all kinds of things. We used to go out to eat often or to listen to music or see movies. It's been at least 5 years since we went to a movie. But I am completely committed to the marriage. I would never cheat on him and I don't think he would cheat on me. I promised to stay with him in good times and bad so there is no reason for me to quit just because things are not as I would like. I'm sure you are all right about trying to find ways to make friends and have fun things to do sometimes. It is just really hard to find time and money to do that. I can't see to drive at night and it's such a long drive to town that I don't even do that every weekend. And weekends are so filled up already. I do thank all of you for your suggestions. I need to think about them some more and try to figure out some way to make some of them work.

I think, because that painting is so large and you still have so much space to "fill", it's going to be hard to do a gallery wall with pieces that won't be dwarfed by the existing piece and that coordinate nicely with it. Or, if you get more large pieces, it could become overwhelming. But it can be done! Is there another place in the room you could hang that one and find a grouping for over the sectional? I found these ideas for arrangements on walls behind a large sectional.. Maybe adding some simple shelves (don't overdecorate them) along with more art might work (if you picture your painting as the window here:

Denise, here is a link about lighting. That lamp, to me, is not appropriate for the space without having other lighting, not because of the size, but because the light doesn't point downward. It points upward/outward. It is the type of light you use for ambient lighting of the room. JMO. (Edit: I have to admit I am not a fan of torchiere-type lighting in any form at all, so this may impact my view of that particular floor lamp) Groveraxle, and others on Houzz, are much more knowledgeable in this area than I am....please read these houzz articles to start. [https://www.houzz.com/magazine/decorating-101-how-to-plan-your-homes-lighting-stsetivw-vs~12803740[(https://www.houzz.com/magazine/decorating-101-how-to-plan-your-homes-lighting-stsetivw-vs~12803740) [https://www.houzz.com/magazine/get-turned-on-to-a-lighting-plan-stsetivw-vs~30716408[(https://www.houzz.com/magazine/get-turned-on-to-a-lighting-plan-stsetivw-vs~30716408) [https://www.houzz.com/magazine/10-ways-to-get-your-lighting-right-stsetivw-vs~10558866[(https://www.houzz.com/magazine/10-ways-to-get-your-lighting-right-stsetivw-vs~10558866) Take the time to go through the "Houzz stories" so you can fine tune your knowledge on lighting. Take the time to speak to a lighting professional. It is one of the areas where I see many people forget, or don't know how, to address in their homes.