A rant of grief for my late mother . . .
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Comments (26)Hi Ibuzzell: Why we need roses? Roses is a safe hobby. What if the mother of Sandyhook killer, Nancy Lanza, was into roses rather than guns? There's the true story of a orthopedic surgeon who had a fine gun collection. He was showing them off to the boyfriend of his daughter. That same day, she broke up with him. The boy took one gun from her father's collection, and shot her. She was paralyzed and was confined to a wheelchair for the rest of her life. What if that surgeon was into roses, rather than gun? Unfortunately roses get the bad rap of needing spraying with chemicals ... no one want to bother with that. I have to spray my shower stall with vinegar or hydrogen peroxide to kill mold, and it's the most unpleasant task. Thank God I don't have to spray my 45+ own-root roses. People don't realize that the German chemical giant Bayer makes other crop-control products, and NOT just for roses. 94 million acres of corn are planted with seeds treated with pesticides. There's also the Oberon-insecticides spray for corn. There's a book about fighting cancer written by an M.D. with a brain tumor. He wrote about growing up in France and watching farmers nearby spraying their corn field. There are 3 studies that linked bee decline to Bayer Pesticide. If our crops are sprayed, and if our flowers are sprayed, then how will the bees survive? No flower can smell as good as roses, I grow plenty of fragrant flowers: peonies, lilacs, daffodils, gardenia .... and none of them can match the beauty of roses either. Below is a hedge of Carefree Celebration at the rose park, after October frost. They spray, and I don't see any bees among their 1,200 roses. Here is a link that might be useful: New studies linking bee decline to Bayer This post was edited by Strawberryhill on Mon, May 20, 13 at 10:18...See MoreStress and grief. Imput please
Comments (12)Thanks very much. Very good advice, some I know, yet need to refocus. I will look into the device Aisha, sounds awesome. Donna Anne Your empathy and Validation is encouraging. My daughter wouldn't answer my calls, so I called her at her part time job. She said she hadn't answered because she wasn't ready to talk. I asked her if she felt better, she said she was still PO,ed. I told her that I have never jumped on her on any of these issues, she said she was angry at herself. I told her that wasn't right. She's not supposed to feel that way. I told her we could get her an apartment. She said she wanted to wait till she graduated and get an apartment with her boyfriend. Then I called the 19 yr old son, he said the pay stub thing makes him feel like he's doing something against them. I explained that, its just black and white info, and that everyone doe's it and has to go through these procedures. That to think it was wrong would be distorted thinking. He said he felt sorry for my daughter. Which was good because he's never been to nice to her. I told him I apriciated his empathy for her. Which he has of course because he can relate. He said, it has to be worse for her because he himself is supporting himself. When my daughter showed her fear, apprehension and sadness. also detachment was quite visible. I felt stress in my shoulders and head. I wanted a verbal confrontation with the SD in a big way. Because Im sure my passivity gives him free rein. Ive learned to speak up a lot more these last five years. Because there inflamatory redrick turns cop,s GAL,s and judges against me. So Ive learned to forget the preliminarys and jump right on the aces. It has helped. Last Labor Day weekend was my holiday. The BM family has a annual reunion. If the BM would ask I would trade in a heartbeat But since she,s not allowed to talk to me, they prefer to steal it. I called the 14 yr old at the time, at 4:00. Pick up time was 6:00. He said they were getting ready to leave. I told him to stay right there I was on my way and I would have the cops there. When I arrived, the cops were there, I parked on the street and stepped out my car door. SD said he's not allowed on this property. The sheriff asked me to stay in my car we would talk in a minite. Sitting back down I could see the SD running his mouth. So I stood up again and said, "he has nothing to do with this and everything he says is Hogwash anyway. The sheriff guy said just a minute sir and I'll be with you. They walked to my car. They told me I would have to get a lawyer this was a civil offense. I said, it's also a criminal offense. Then the other deputy started acting like Barney Five, jabbing himself in the chest and rudely asking me if I was trying to tell him his job. So I said yes sir I guess I am. and I showed him a copy of the statutes. He said Oh, a class c misdemeanor, it might as well be a civil offense. On the way there I was hoping the SD or the BM would come out and opologize for the mishap and offer a trade and keep the conflict down. While I was talking to the cops. I found out from the youngest that the SD had pursued my crying daughter to her room demanding that she come out and tell the cops she didnt want to go. The nice cop said he would make a report. Since pick up time was 6:00 I went to the police department were I had been working with a detective on the visit problems. He wanted to call my ex, so he went down the hall. While I was sitting there my Daughter called. She was crying like I had never heard her before. ( in the past her voice would be strained and scared sometimes her face would be grey , sometimes a tear rolling down her face, like when she was 8 and I was picking them up. she came up to the door of the truck, she said, (Daddy" Alisha is going to the State Fair, I want to go but I need 5 more dollars and SD says if I see my friends again while I'm with you I'm in big trouble by him, I said "Honey, Grandpas getting the horses ready to go ride around the lake and maybe Alisha can go with us sometime. Turned out, My Dad was taking his other Grandkids to the fair, so we went. So BD rode rides with Alisha. The youngest told on BD. So they grounded her for two weeks. I explained discretion very nicely to the young boy and the other two. They have all been very discreet since. So I took them to court.... Back to the Detectives office. She called crying so hard she was struggling to breath, she said, Daddy I don't want to go with you and I don't want to stay here, I want to go to Jeanie's, I can talk to her. I told her I would pick her up and take her to Jeanie's at 6:00. I went to her work and told Jeanie that I was gonna bring my BD. Jeanie loved horses, so I told them if they wanted that they could relax for the night and that if they would like I would have the horses and a paid campsite at the state park for the weekend if they liked. Jeanie's Father had always kept her from her Mother and she was seeing her Mother behind his back. I picked up the kids and told them that I would take them to that reunion if they preferred it to the park that I could find something to do in that part of the state. They said the Horse thing was good. Yet it was obvious to me that they were internalizing much of the weekend. Back to the State fair and the no phone contact and taking them to court. I knew they would lie and manipulate the court, so I took a newspaper reporter with me. He had put my pic on the front page of the town paper and gave me a nicname (Boxing tournement) without my permission so he had to help me. (positive manipulation?) At court the SD left the court room, went into the clerks office, told them someone was taping. They went into the hearing room behind the judge and told him. The judge went to the reporter and tore the tape out of his recorder with an attitude. The judge continued the hearing for more evidence. That was like Feb 2, then like feb 21st an annoyomous caller called cps and said that my BD said she touched my thing through my pants. This is unknown to me, I go to pick them up, only the boys come out. The elder says she went with Mammaw. The next visit, no BD this time my boy said he'd call the police. I went to the door and asked my ex wheres my BD. she said, she's a liar and arrogant like you are. She was nine yrs old. I could be crying right now recanting this. Its been to much to long. I filed for an emergency hearing. No response, I filed again. The baliff told me on the phone, that my daughter had implicated the SD for sex abuse. I got the criteria on sex abuse from the National child abuse foundation. It said that a control freak is more likley to molest that a pervert. I thought my BD was teaching him a lesson. The more I learned the more I believed he did it. The CPS report reads that she said he felt her privates under her clothes and that he stood over the toilet and pee came out and he said thats where Babies come from. Cps sent her to family works, they sent her to the sex crime de3tectives. She told the same story each time, so brave. The criteria also said a child that age would not lie except to escape an intolorable situation. In the emergency hearing the exs lawyer was distorting things(right, wrong or indifferent, he was a litigator he said to me, in the hall when I confronted him) He filed saying my daughter implicated me then changed her story. The judge put me on supervised and the SD on a no-contact. He ignored it. I filed contempt, she was found in contempt for allowing it. they continued to ignore it. I picked up the boys. And sd was there with BD. I called the cops, they said stay there, we'll send someone. The cops pulled up to there house while I was down the street. My older boy about 12 wanted to head to the farm badly. I told him I had to be a Dad. The cops after talking to them, came and arrested me for invasion of privacy on a protection order. (Bogus allagations for protective order no hearing.) My boy ran crying to the house. I was hand cuffed and sat on the curb waiting for the patty wagon. while the BD and the youngest watched from a window. The cop refused to read the no-contact order. I am writing this for all the value I can get out of it. My wish is for healing of my kids and myself. It is certainly a blight that eats away. I wish to expose the system for what it is (primitive) This was in Indianapolis courts. I liked the head judge but only went in front of her once in 12 years. Its now moved to a more Humane County. Which theres only been one hearing. Where she tried to take my youngest a way this summer. The Judge put more stipulations on her. I hope I don't tick him off, cause this could be a turn around. Thank you for reading. This recounting gives me focus and determination to show the judge next week the hardship I'm dealing with and why my income is low. The support is paid. But I have to lift the kids up when there failing in school. I spent last summer trying to get SD off my kids. Thanks again for the feedback and encouragement....See MoreMy sister -- just a rant
Comments (10)--" my nephew is kind of over the anger, he is doing great in school, he is managing his mental health with medication but with behavior modification he is doing excellent. I'm so proud of him."-- Good for him! It sounds like that no matter the chaos and mess around him, he at least is doing 'ok' and working hard at overcoming his own issues. It is strange though that your sister assures he get help and therapy yet does nothing to deal with her own issues. Ever watch that tv series on hoarding? OMG is right. I won't even begin to think I understand hoarding behavior, cause I don't, but I wonder if the moving/partner to partner lifestyle of your sister has somehow helped create the hoarding tendency? Perhaps she views the total mess and junk in her house as the one consistancy that belongs to her and the one thing she can control with thinking 'my possessions'. IDK. Such inconsistancies. Poor son has no shoes yet the lady has a housefull of them. No clothing, yet the house is littered with clothing. No food yet hands her money to others for food. Makes one wonder why she did not hand her friend the address for the foodbank instead of the cash. Is the 'stuff' all over her home the reason she is always broke? Meaning she spends her money on all this junk and therefore has none for the things she really needs? I'm not sure there is anything you personally could do to 'help', it seems like professionals with training to deal with people with these issues would be the only hope of breaking what is going on. Has your nephew talked to his therapist about his living conditions? Is there a school counselor that might be able to assist him? A sink full of dishes would not give CPS much room to work with, but a housefull as in unsafe, unsantitary ect might. If you 'rat' her out, be prepared that your sister will be angry with you and perhaps try and shut you out from interfering with what obviously she sees as 'no problem'. I have not a bit of advice, but wanted to say from your 'vent' I think you have real reason to feel concern. I'm just not sure what it is you could do to 'help' all on your own...this sounds like it may be a bigger issue than you yourself could take on without some outside assistance. In the meantime, perhaps you could include your nephew in a bit of your weekend activities (minus Mom) just so he knows Aunt Myfam is there for him and give him a wee bit of a chance to have some normalcy in his life, a decent meal ect. And continue to help out a bit with the little things you have been doing (like the facewash)....See MoreRant: "Where's my morning Tribune?"
Comments (17)Our local paper is really declining and DH is a real newspaper man. He'll often have read two or three before the day is up, stopping at his sisters to get her Seattle paper on his way out of here, sometimes picking up either the Olympia or Tacoma paper too at some point during the day. Our local paper quit printing on Mondays some time back. Now, it's reduced to three days a week delivery/printing. We've had nice carriers, all adult men, no newsboys (or girls) and most of them with kids of their own, little resources. We've been lucky, no one has insisted we put a paper box (tube) at the top of our uphill circular driveway, they have all generously agreed to make the drive through, put the paper in the mail slot on the side of the house so that it falls indoors. I say Thank You a lot. If I'm in my office I smile and wave, acknowledge him through the window. I'm a big tipper, monthly and I give an extra cash amount mid summer and again at Christmas. I don't know how it compares, but we pay $41.25 for three months of three days per week local newspaper.....Plus tips....See Moremaddielee
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