My heart goes out to you. I'm in the same situation and the only comfort that I find is when I do things to keep his memory alive. I attach notes to ballons filled with hellium and then release them into the air. I've built a memorial website in my sons honor and I spend alot of time on the site just reminicing. Knowing that eventually I am going to see him again. Bryce is always by your side, though you may not see him he is there.As they say "When a spouse looses a spouse they are called widow or widower, when a child looses a parent they are called orphans, but when a parent looses a child there is no word to describe the loss. Don't Mourn For Me Mother, please don't mourn for me; I'm still here, though you don't see. I'm right by your side each night and day and within your heart I long to stay. My body is gone but I'm always near I'm everything you feel, see or hear. My spirit is free, but I'll never depart as long as you keep me alive in your heart. I'll never wander out of your sight-- I'm the brightest star on a summer night. I'll never be beyond your reach-- I'm the warm moist sand when you're at the beach. I'm the colorful leaves when fall comes around, And the pure white snow that blankets the ground. I'm the beautiful flowers of which you're so fond-- The clear cool water in a quiet pond. I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in the spring; The first warm raindrop that April will bring. I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine, And you'll see that the face in the moon is mine. When you start thinking there's no one to love you, You can talk to me through the Lord above you. I'll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees, And you'll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze. I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep And the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep. I'm the smile you see on baby's face. Just look for me, Mommy, I'm everyplace ! (Author unknown)

I've never seen a card like that either. Send her flowers or a "thinking of you" card. And a phone call on the day would be nice. I was born just before Father's Day and my Dad always said I was the best FD present he had ever received. It always made my BD seem special to have it so close to Father's Day. My dad passed away last August so this birthday, and Father's Day, is going to be rough for me. I plan to call my Mom that Sunday just to say "I'm thinking of you today."

Please understand that I do not mean to minimize the hurt and sorrow that resulted for many as a result of this explosion, or the useful results that may have been generated as a result, in what I am about to say. We have had so little military style activity in this part of North America that such events strike us harder than in many other parts of the world where such militarily-related experiences have long been much more common. There were millions of our compatriots killed in World Wars I and II ... but most of them were elsewhere - in someone else's back yard. After the Revolutionary War, we had the War of 1812 (which was Britain and the U.S., mostly, as it was 55 years before Canada became its own more or less independent entity). There'd been a bit of a rebellion in 1837 in two provinces of what became Canada ... but if anyone was killed during that fuss, I can't give you any indication of how many ... but it did result in the old country offering some more democratic systems in our fair land. Then there was the War Between the States/Civil War in the early 1860s, which was a fairly major set-to. And when I was thinking along these lines a while ago ... I thought that to be the last such military-style adventures that our part of the world had seen in our own back yard. But ... then I remembered that we Canadians had had a rebellion in the west, saying that they wanted a fair shake, and that was in 1885, the year in which the last spike was driven in the mountains of what became British Columbia on our transcontinental railroad. A contingent of military was sent out from central Canada to cool them off some and also in 1885 there was a bit of a battle in what became Saskatchewan, against Louis Riel and Gabriel DuMont and other rebels ... but if there were casualties, it wasn't more than a dozen or two. Such a small issue that it was some time before I even remembered it. Though we also have lost millions in overseas adventures in the last somewhat over a couple of centuries, we have very little idea of the horrors of war happening in our own back yard. ole joyful

Yes, i still do have that Page and it is blooming again now. Xie- Shan also top 5, Decopan ofcourse, Have 2 Meyers produces well, Dream Navel and Red navel(Cara-Cara) a keeper. S/T has some bloom now have 2 of them, 2 Valentina's no bloom yet. The rest are small graft are Gold series Mandarins, Pomelo's Thong Dee, Lee-Nova 3 or 4. mandarins and a few others. My research done on these by word of mouth from people that are growing them. Yes i have eaten them and also my wife ratings and also friends and neighbors. I like to give mine but also others opinions. Forgot my seedgrown kumquat tree, 6 feet tall, might have some fruits this year. Thanks Laura, always great of your opinions on taste!