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Comments (47)Our battle with Bosco's hemangiosarcoma came to an end yesterday. He had been feeling ill with a fever of 106° F over the weekend. Their normal temperature is 101° to 102.5°F. So I went to work and raided the place of every antibiotic you can think of, IV fluids, IV catheter... It NEVER occurred to me to grab the euthanasia solution! He got IV fluids through the weekend and a whole pharmacy of medications. His gums returned to a nice healthy pink rather than the ghastly white that had been. He even started to eat baby food that comes in a jar, some ice cream and played with his squeaky ball. He even got up and was walking around. :-) His improvement was apparently his "last hurrah" which I have seen numerous times in terminal patients thoughtout the years. His gums were white yesterday morning and was not breathing normally. I got him into the car by myself. (Amazing what the body can do in an emergency situation.) We took only one radiograph of his chest ... just to see ... :-( About 95% of his chest cavity was tumors. At least five were larger than the size of my fist! There was so much cancer that his heart could not be seen because of all of the tumours. Maybe some involved his heart too. There was a tiny area of his lungs one inch square that appeared cancer free. Certainly that is not enough for a 100 pound dog! I believe that his cancer also infiltrated the intestines because he had black diarrhea yesterday morning. Black is an indication of severe bleeding and the blood has been digested before exiting the body. His type of cancer stems from the cells of blood vessels and there are blood vessels everywhere. He could have had a rupture of a tumor anywhere in his body. That Bosco's gums turned white again was a sign that his tumors were bleeding. That was another painful thing for him plus it made it even harder for him to breathe. Maybe his back pain was the cancer in the spine? Everything was so nice and normal just 3 weeks ago (radiographs and blood work). We even had a check up with his oncologist in August and he was more than delighted how well Bosco was doing! But ... one needs to have at least one billion cells change before the first change is seen on a radiograph. The hemangiosarcoma is also the fastest growing cancer in a dog. :-( I could not see him suffering any more although he never complained about anything I did for him! I called my Mom and told her what was going on and she too did not want this sweet dog to be in needless pain any longer. He was on a thick soft blanket, I gave him a kiss for every family member, told him I was sorry that it came to this. He got an anesthetic through his IV catheter. He still had the one I placed on the weekend. He didn't even need to get poked again. He went to sleep and then I gave him the injection to stop his heart. The guy I work with asked if I wanted him to put Bosco down. No. I needed to perform this final act of love and mercy for our dearest Bosco. Bosco was so trusting and he let me know through the look in his sweet eyes that it was OK and he was ready to leave his pain. :-( The dose is 1cc per 10 pounds of body weight. He died after he got a dose for someone only weighing 20 pounds. I did give him the full dose but for sure he was ready to go. Bosco will be cremated and we will get his ashes back in a few days. I e mailed Mike/Ima_Celery about what was going on and again yesterday what had happened. I don't think he has had time to check his e mails yet. The Internet situation in S. America can be iffy at times. Mike will be back in early October. Daisy is looking for Bosco. Bruno the cat, Bosco's best friend, knows something bad has happened and is lying on Bosco's bed all day. None of the cats had eaten yesterday either! We got his spleen out last September and while 80% of dogs die within one to two months of diagnosis, we were lucky ... did the 12 weeks of chemo and got to have another 11 months with him! About 6 years ago Bosco fathered a litter of 7 puppies. ALL have his loving friendly personality. We were so delighted with his puppies we put some of his "representatives" into a sperm bank. Perhaps later if we find a nice female GSD, she might have some Bosco puppies and his line will endure. That is far down in the future. We need to cope, somehow, with this totally unexpected turn of events. I gave myself a mega headache from crying yesterday and today. Drugs have dulled it a bit but not totally. My sincerest thanks to Semper, Heather and Bihai for their compassion and care during this ordeal! What wonderful people they are, and the rest of you Pond people, for such concern for someone you have never even met! Time to cry some more. :-( Chickadeedeedee...See MoreDoes anyone feel especially sad at the holidays?
Comments (30)Is anybody else on this forum the last remaining family member due to a recent loss ????? If so I could really use some advice on getting back on track!!!! It's especially hard for me now, I had a small family to begin with consisting of my mother, older brother and me. We all had health problems but moms and brothers were the worst and I was caregiver but lookin back I feel I could've done better. We lived in a condo together and turned the downstairs into a hospital bedroom for mom until she started having frequent mini-strokes and had to have 24hr. care, then her cancer returned and took her in 2004. While it was tough I had my older brother Mike 58 to console me Mark 54 but we both grieved constantly, after all we were all we had left except for our kids and Mike's were kind of far away and didn't care to visit because of his cirohsis and they didn't like seeing him that way (geee) Mike's cirohsis got much worse and we fought to get him on Johns Hopkins Liver transplant list,but after taking all tests we didn't hear anything back from them after making many attempts. My brothers ability to walk with his walker now was seriously in jeopardy now and I was in a constant state of denial and when I got flashes of his passing I got mentally upset and lost my ability to deal with the my caregiving duties until I gathered myself. I couldn't face the possibility of my brothers death and me being completely alone so I blocked it out totally. That weekend I was helping him back from the bathroom and he stsrted talking and not making any sense and after several attempts he managed to tell me to call rescue, but I remembered the last time this happened he responded to me when raising my voice and kinda snapped back but it didn't work this time, my brother fell into coma and passed 2 weeks later. He was so much to me because we lost our dad when I was 11 and he was 15 and I looked to him as father figure and then we became work partners and later to become growing old together until now. He was always there for me and we both realized we were all that remained from our deceased parents and tried to console each other but he always seemed to keep calm where I had anxiety and he calmed me down. I am totally by myself now and feel like I am loosing it because I feel I should've paid more attention to those feelings I had that Mike was nearing death instead of blocking them out, I should've had him re admitted back to the hospital even though I had just brought him home a week ago. Then He had a few good days to make me think he wasn't getting worse and the back and forthness of this disease drove me to the brink and I would find my ability to deal with his next downturn almost impossible because that sinking feeling of the worst reality that my brothers death returned made me want to knock it away and made me lose my temper knowing I was loosing the battle. Since his passing on October 18 I constantly have feelings of guilt like something I did or didn't could've prevented his coma and I keep replaying it over in my mind constantly, and the constant solitude is neverending, but when I try to go outside I feel like the "Stranger in a Strange Land" and hurry to get back home where no-one is. I agree with the other poster that this is the worst year of my life and after 2 1/2 months since my brothers passing I can't tell if I am making any progress in my grieving because being totally alone it's so hard to tell. I saw my kids for a few hours for a late Christmas visit because they always visit their mom and her most recently divorced husband for the holidays first, and I could tell they were slowly getting bummed out by me and my problems but I guess I have to try and pretend I feel alright. I am sorry for everyones losses and I hope the New Year is a better one and I thank you for listening and welcome any and all responses. Sorry for the long read Mark...See MoreWhat does it feel like to die?
Comments (23)I don't know what it feels like to die but will share this story about a friend of mine. It may be a little off topic. I had a neighbor when I lived in another town that was a good friend. He was very intelligent, kind of an introvert and didn't socialize very much with other people but we became good friends. He was 9 years older than me. I moved about 20 miles away but used to call him or go see him from time to time or he would come here. It had been several weeks since I had last talked to him, and I called and his phone was shut off. That caused me to panic. I thought he had died and no one told me....which wouldn't be unusual for his family. They were even odder than he was. I rushed over there and he came to the door in his underwear, had a long beard, and looked like the stories I had heard of Howard Hughes...except he didn't have kleenex boxes for shoes. He was very depressed....no food in the house except some moldy burritos in the fridge that he had bought at a convenience store. Empty wine bottles stacked like cord wood in every cabinet in the kitchen. Hadn't picked up his mail, so he hadn't paid any bills. Didn't realize his phone had been shut off. To make a long story a little shorter, I cleaned his house, got food for him, paid his bills, etc. I thought he was going to die any day. That is how bad he looked but he didn't want to go to the doctor. So I took care of him. He lived 8 more years. Every day I went over there to see about him. At the end, I was there as often as 4 times a day, even sleeping on the floor to stay with him. We talked about death and dying many times. He had emphysema very bad...still smoked all the time. I asked him to contact me when he died, if he could. He didn't believe in stuff like that, but finally, he said he would. I was with him when he died (at home). I was talking to him and asked him if he wanted something to drink. He said yes. I went to the kitchen, got a Gatorade for him and came right back, and he took two shallow breaths and was gone. Just that quick. A few months after he died, I dreamed I got a phone call from him. It was so real....just like he was in life....the way he came across. He said, "Why don't you come to see me any more?" I didn't want to tell him that he had died and his niece, who he didn't like, was now living in his house. So, I said, "You don't live where you used to." He said "What?!" I said, "Ken, you died." He sounded incredulous when he said, "Are you sure about that?" The "are you sure about that?" was a phrase he often used when I told him something he didn't quite think was right. I don't know how much stock I put in dreams but it was so real....just like he was talking to me. I was closer to him than almost anyone. The last 8 years of his life I had spent so much time with him....we talked about everything. I can always feel his presence around me. I don't know how to describe it. It is almost like he didn't die and is nearby, just not physically with me at the moment....See MoreWhat Major Purchase Do You Feel You Really Screwed Up On?
Comments (54)Also got a kick out of the responses! I don't HATE our Frigidaire fridge, but I do HATE the ice makers. It has two, one in the bottom freezer & one in the door. They never both work at the same time. The bottom one has completely quit, and the top one has a mind of it's own. It will work for awhile, quit, and then when we have a power outage, it will work again for awhile. I've tried to recreate a power outage by flipping the breaker. Doesn't work. Has to actually be power out and back on I guess. Makes absolutely no sense. Best purchase/gift ever is our little under the counter ice maker. The thing has ONE job, and it does it like a champ!!! Three ice makers in our house and that one supplies 95% of the ice....See MoreZalco/bring back Sophie!
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