The thing that worried me about pressure canning was the boom factor. Just knowing that thing was there and was building pressure and was sitting mere feet away from me while I watched that gage was unnerving the first time or two. Then I got used to it and it was fine. Eventually, I preferred using the pressure canner over using the BWB canner because you don't have to keep that boiling water level topped off. Quarts especially are terrible in a BWB because there is usually not much room to spare above them as it is. Granted, you can't just set it and forget it with a PC, but it is a lot easier to just watch and adjust the burner. The one thing that I do not like about PC is that it is more time consuming per batch than BWB. You have to start with relatively cold water, wait for the temp and pressure to ramp up, then time it, then wait for the temp and pressure to fall, then you're done. With BWB, you can fill the pot with new hot filled jars as soon as you are done with the first load and never miss a beat. Water maintains a boil before, during (mostly) and after. Double or triple batching (separately maintained batches) is a breeze with BWB since you can prep and fill jars close to the time the current load is going to be done. You can't make one big triple recipe and divide it, but you can make three separate recipes and process individually and then can each in succession. Nice for relishes or chutneys or anything that has to marinate overnight as long as you have refrigerator space to do it. I PC canned a lot of pints of green beans and they tasted just like the cans you get at the store. That's fine by me because I like that flavor. But if I do them any more, I'll do quarts instead of pints since I can down a pint by myself at one sitting. usually two. And I canned carrots in it as well. And it seems like plain blueberries. Been a while since I did those. Neither method is really that difficult. Just understand each and how to do them when you do them.

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Thank you all for your responses. I felt like I had been punched in the stomach yesterday. I am beginning to calm down a little and I do know that this is all beyond my control. I have worked for several years through group and individual therapy to reach that point. The way Im feeling now was how I felt every single day the past several years and getting that feeling yesterday just about did me in. Im sorry for all of you who have been through this horrible experience. I am most upset that after her terrible medical problem, two months of rehab, living in a group home and finally sober living home that this happened. Of course my biggest fear is that she will go back to drugs. I can't begin to tell you how helpful it is to come here and get such support. I don't feel as alone. These are the times that I so wish my husband were here with me. Thank you all for your compassion and understanding. Satine