Chickens are a lot of fun! (Ducks, I've never had) I'm glad they are helping you get thru this sad time. Your father was wise in finding something for you to have to interest you. I had two black cochins. They are a large, gentle breed. One of my girls went broody and gave me tow little chicks this summer. Good luck with your flocks! Dannic

daisy, Sorry you have to change directions with your greenhouse business. In order to offer some options, could you say what the current roof /side covering material is? If it is something rigid, like fiberglass, polycarbonate, glass, you could simply paint it if your idea is to keep out more light and heat for a shed. If it is polyethylene, then you could replace that with green fiberglass sheets, galvanized metal roofing sheets, or even OSB/outdoor plywood.

I will probably be doing what I am doing now, studying. This semester is kicking me in the rear! After finals on Dec 11 I wil start working like a mad woman. My daughter wants to go to Europe with her theatre group so I will be working to pay for that (she has never asked to go on one of their trips berore and didn't really ask to go on this one but I knew she wanted to go) This will be Christmas, BD and graduation present all in one. This school semester should be over just in time for pnuemonia season to start peaking. I am not even going to worry about my house till spring, even though I would like to get some painting done. My sister is going to come up for my daughter's graduation and said she knew I had been ignoring things so we will do a big spring cleaning/closet clean out when she gets here. Now if only I had Pedro for the yard I would be all set. Kasha have fun with the exercising, I started runnning this summer when one of the local running clubs had a womens only 10 week training session. I have back slid and need to get back out and run, it should be easier now that the weather has cooled off. I think I will add that to my todo list, maybe it will destress me from school, I have really been stressing this semester (I see the 3.92 GPA going down the tubes!) Mary

Maryann, I am not in the medical profession so I cannot respond to your concerns about your medicine. But you are alone now, I am gathering, and feeling overwhelmed. You have started a new job and are trying to process the past few months and year. I think it is probably normal to feel worried and scared. I feel worried and scared too. Everybody does. I am at a point now in my grief where it has opened my eyes to the reality of my life. Who is real in my life and who is in name only. And what my priorities are. I am looking at the rest of my life and wondering how it's going to unfold and how I will handle certain stages. It is really hitting home that EVERYBODY dies, and that death is a part of life, and that each day is a gift, not to be wasted in anger, or resentment, or even too much television. Perhaps you are having an awakening of sorts too. I do not thing that your emotions or grief process would interfere with your drug. Antidepressants do not erase your grief as you know, but may help you to be a little more in control so you can actually process your feelings. They just help some people cope if the intensity of their grief continues. It sounds like you need to see your Dr. to discuss your medication and whether your not you should switch to something else or increase your dosage. Good luck to you. Joanie