Someone please help me...
I am so confused right now and so very afraid.
I just kicked my 16yr old out of my house! What kind of mother am I? Am I too uptight and stressed out, as he continuously tells me? Or do I just expect too much from him? He can be such a good kid at times and yet when I least expect it, he totaly shocks me with the things he does! It's almost as if he's playing with my head. Why?! I love him so but I'm barely holding on here.
He's a very smart kid but his grades are shocking (last year). Two days into the new school year, he was already in trouble - had in school detention. I practically hold my breath till around 2 in the afternoon anticipating yet another ugly call from his guidance coucelor. Those calls come in anywhere from 2 to 3 per week.
Curfew? At times, he is very good at keeping them - other times? He'll tell me straight out that he doesn't want to come home now, that he'll be home "later".
He will very quietly do exactly what he wants and there's nothing anyone can do to stop him.
My breaking point happened this morning on my way to work. I notice 3 of his friends walking towards my house. I followed them back home and it turns out that my wonderful son had 8 KIDS!! hanging around my kitchen. How many times have I talked, begged, negotiated, threatened, bribed my son not to have people in the house when no adult is around? Sadly, way too many times...I completely lost it and kicked everyone out INCLUDING him. I also did the unthinkable by calling my fiance and telling what had happened. The poor man is so frustrated with this kid, it breaks my heart for I love them both dearly.
I also involved his father, whom I haven't talked to in years and who does not have a good relationship with either of his kds. What exactly was I hoping for? I'm not sure, I guess I was hoping the man would offer to take over for a while.
I know my kid enough to know that he will not be home tonight...and I feel like dying - God help me.
Someone, please tell me what to do for I am a lousy mother - God help my son.