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Help! I'm feel like I'm going crazy...long

17 years ago

I don't even know how to start. For the last 4-5 months I have not felt good and not at all like myself. I went to my GP a couple of times with no satisfactory results, then went to an endocrinologist who has diagnosed me as anemic and B12 deficient, and elevated cholesterol. She said my thyroid was normal. She started me on a multivitamin, folic acid and B-Complex. After going to the health food store, I also started on a B-12 lozenge, iron, magnesium, and acidophilus for my digestive problems. Im using black strap molasses, honey and beetroot juice as dietary aids. I am limited as to what I can eat that doesnt make me nauseated.

My lab results show Im in menopause (Ill be 50 in October). I had a partial hysterectomy January 2001. I take 0.3 Premarin 1x daily since October. I had also been put on Welbutrin 150 2x day by my GP for depression, but dont think it really helps. I also have tried Cymbalta but it didnt help that much, either.

I am so tired of feeling bad, and it has been so long that I dont even remember what it is to feel good. I cant be the wife and mother I need and want to be (I know my husband and son are tired of seeing me just sit around and do nothing), nor the employee I should be. I have missed a large amount of work the last 2 months due to being so fatigued This adds to my depression.

My symptoms are:

Severe fatigue/exhaustion in everything - I take naps every chance I get

No stamina

Hot flashes so bad my clothes are just drenched (just started on Black Cohosh to try to help that)

When I get sick I dont feel like I ever bounce back 100%

Depression

Nausea

Loss of appetite, but weight gain and cant lose it

Lack of concentration

Lose train of thought constantly

Forgetfulness

Headaches

Twitching over left eye constantly

Irritability

Anxiety, have to get up and move around

Moody

Loss of sex drive

Lack of motivation

Hands and feet get coldcold never used to bother me

No energy to exercise, and I use to 3-5 times a week

Feel like crying all the time

Then to top it all off, I had some type of attack Monday afternoon, thought I was having a heart attack, went to the dr. and he admitted me for observation. I was sweating profusely, clammy, cold hands, heart palpitations, short of breath, crying.then I started feeling better and thought I was stupid for going in. I had all heart tests done and its not my heart.the cardiologist said he thought it was major depression.

I do have an appointment with a new gynecologist that is supposed to be good at treating all around womens health, but cant get in until June 5th.

I actually feel like I am going crazy. Im worried about the effect all this is having on my marriage, though my husband doesnt say anything.

Does anyone else feel THIS bad? WHat have you taken that really helps?

TIA

Comments (55)

  • 17 years ago
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    I thoroughly agree with cheerful, 'iam sick and tired of being sick and tired'exactly how I feel. Will it get easier? I'd hate to think of feeling this way idefinitely. You are so right, this is a great forum for us.

  • 17 years ago
    last modified: 9 years ago

    Don't worry... ALL familiar stuff! You'll find loads of women going through the same experiences. Personally, I've found stinging nettle infusions help with energy and nausea. (recommended by Susun Weed, google her, she's very helpful). Many women having the same problems are discussing them over at www.power-surge.com, which I've found really helps my sanity. Also, we may find we have to change the way we eat to get through this. I've been trying to follow Diana Schwarzbein's ideas: we need healthy fats and proteins to produce hormones. (Eggs, butter, cream, whole fat cottage cheese!) Also very much worth looking into!!!

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    Hi Susan...I don't get the sharp pain you were speaking about mine is more like electrical current and head rushes like the blood gets caught up and then releases into my head. Very strange. Sometimes it feels like fluttering. I know it sounds like I'm half crazy but it's real and scary but since it's been going on for 12 years now I made the determination it's not going to kill me so try and just feel it and let it go. Mine happens almost everyday sometimes all day. It really is exhausting. I know you have been suffering so long we have communicated several years back. It's a shame that we both still are suffering. I try not to talk about too often anymore to friends and family. I'm sure they are sick of hearing about it and I'm sure as heck sick of trying to describe it. I too wish you a healthy non symptom day. Meditation does help and so does slow deep belly breathing. Please stay in touch and thank you for your post.

    Terri xoxo

  • 10 years ago
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  • 10 years ago
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    Thanks Paula! I will hang on to what you said about the symptoms subsiding soon! Thank you for your wonderful post, you are very kind and knowledgeable! I will definitely try the B12 and Vitamin D, esp. as we are all we are just now coming out of the harshest winter for a while even here in the south. Thanks again and God bless!

  • 10 years ago
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    p.s. Spring is coming:)

    This post was edited by artist1234 on Sun, Mar 9, 14 at 17:19

  • 10 years ago
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  • 10 years ago
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    Hello, HellofromCypressTX, it does feel good to know you're in good company, doesn't it? It was a God send to me to discover this forum. My struggle with perimenopause went on for about 5 years - wow. Started around age 47 and continued until about 52, with the symptoms getting gradually worse the first three years and then ever so slowly diminishing. During those years, every part of my body hurt -- and it was due to my hormones fluctuating. It's no surprise that so many women in this age group are diagnosed with "chronic fatigue syndrome" or other such illnesses. The fact is, our bodies are significantly affected by the diminishing hormones and it takes time for us to adjust. It's a shame so many tests are done when it almost always gets down to the hormones. And why the vast majority of doctors have no clue about the multitude of symptoms that occur is beyond me. Surely some of the middle aged female doctors have experienced at least some of the difficult changes. Well I'm glad you wrote about your story. I can totally relate to the anxiety -- I've had a couple panic attacks in my day, but I had the worst one ever during this time. Unreal. I had to get a script for Xanax which I took sparingly. I was grateful to have it though when I could feel the panic start. I, too, took long walks which sometimes made the difference between a full blown panic attack and a milder one. I remember having difficulty getting out of bed and walking some mornings - the bottoms of my feet actually hurt!! I stiffly walked like an ancient being to the bathroom, hoping my husband wouldn't see. Well, you may have a few more years go with this particular journey, but the good news is: it does get better!!!! Yes, one of these days you will be the cheery lady walking through the shoe store or shopping in the mall. Until that day comes, take good care of yourself and keep the faith. Get extra rest when you can, keep up with your walks, and watch some funny movies to get your mind off of things. When the time is right, you will find another job and it might be something totally different. It's never too late to follow your dreams. How are your Vitamin D levels -- very important! Do you take diuretics for BP? Try taking some CoQ10, and fish oil. As a minimum take a multi-vitamin and drink lots of water. Take deep breaths in the quiet of your room when the anxiety comes calling. This too shall pass! You sound like a great person and the "old you" will return. I love the picture of the sunflowers!! Blessings

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    Oh, bless you, Paulas2cents, for replying. I do feel better sharing this nightmare. I will take all your suggestions to heart. My Vit D is a little low, no diuretic but I have mitral valve prolapse and do take light amount of Atenolol. Doesn't erase the anxiety but does calm the heart. I take a light amount because it also knocks down my already-low BP. I've not tried CoQ10 but it can't hurt. I will give fish oil another go. I do drink lots of water, thank goodness.

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    I didn't realize the pic of the sunflowers (found it on my computer somewhere) would be so BIG on the screen, lol.
    Glad you liked them!

    And thanks again for the encouragement :)

  • 10 years ago
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    Hi Cypress TX...Boy you and I sound so similar. I know exactly how you feel. It's awful, scary, lonely, confusing, etc. I also want to ask all the ladies walking around if they feel like I do. It's officially going to be 13 years for me in June. I like you have anxiety all day every day. It's got to the point now that when I don't have anxiety it's strange and wonderful. I take xanax every day only .25 twice a day just to take the edge off. I also have mitro valve prolapse and take a small amount of inderal. I can only say I never thought this was the way my health would be. I really try to do the best I can to get through the days. I see the world very differently over these difficult years I've learned to appreciate the littlest things. I try to help as many people as I can, I don't question much anymore. I'm grateful for the blue sky and peace when my body finds some. I really wish I could make you feel better. Please know you are not alone. Be kind and gentle to yourself. Smile through the tears and know one day it will end. I believe I will be a better person for having suffered so much or should I say I am a better person because all this suffering has brought me to a new understanding of life. To simplify the complicated and just live in the moment. I know God will not let this go on forever just until I figure out the reason. Sending gentle hugs your way and a peaceful heart. Warm Regards, Terri

  • 10 years ago
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    Thanks for sending me those good wishes, Terri (lostnj). This is sooo difficult. And, like you, I am astounded by those few moments when I actually feel well. I feel I appreciate life more now that I struggle so much. I, too, have a prescrip for Xanax (I can't seem to get on AD meds--side effects were too much for me). The MVP, I believe, has greatly contributed to my situation. I've read that MVP ladies have a MUCH tougher time during meno. Mine was only discovered at the onset of menopause--heart began racing like a train, even caused burst blood vessels in my eyes one day. Scary. I began Metoprolol, then switched to Atenolol. I am grateful for responses like yours that let me know I can lean on others and never stop trying to enjoy life. I also trust in our Lord and, like you, believe there must be a purpose for this. Thanks for the hugs and complete understanding!!!!!!!

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    CypressTX...Reach out anytime you need a sympathetic ear. If I can help make your day better I would be more than happy too. It's important to stick together and know we are not crazy. I hope today is a bearable one for you.

    xoxo Terri

  • 10 years ago
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    Terri, today was a rough one. Thanks for being on this forum!

    Did you say you were on pellets (earlier post)? I am trying Combipatch and want to switch to Vivelle with Prometrium. Doc slow to call me back. Combi poops out so quickly. I felt so anxious for better part of day. Used Elestrin as additional estrogen (old sample from doc) and felt better. I tried to use Elestrin by itself but too weak. My E must be really low from no hrt for 2 yrs. Does E build up slowly in the body the more you use it or must one give constant doses to keep it up?? My body feels so E deprived!

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    Hi Cypress...Yes I started with bio-identical hormone pellets 3 years ago (estrogen and testosterone) and take 100 mg of progesterone by mouth every night. Prior to pellets I was on the vivelle-dot patch and 100 prometrium for 2 years. I also didn't absorb the estrogen pellet and my evels were always in the tank. I felt like I was having a nervous breakdown It was a very dark and upsetting time in my life. Once I changed to the pellets it helped me improve about 50 percent which I was happy about. However, it is still a struggle because it is extremely difficult to balance hormones. Sometimes your body uses up estrogen faster esp with sickness, stress, etc. I think the rise and fall of my hormones play havoc on my adrenals and sympathetic nervous system. Each day is a struggle. Do you have all your parts? I'm sorry about the anxiety you are having. Do you ever get your labs taken? When I get pellets I have to get low dosing because I'm extremely sensitive to high amounts of hormones and most meds. You should research pellet therapy. They have saved my life however like I said before its not an exact science and I haven't found that magical balance yet. Honestly, its been a very bumpy road for me. Many many doctors I finally pulled back for lack of not knowing what else to do for myself. If you ever want to chat let me know I will gv you my phone number. I hope today is a better day for you. Drink lots of water and do lots of deep belly breathing when your anxiety is really bad. Not that it will make it go away but it will help my friend.

  • 10 years ago
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    So relieved to have found this thread on perimenopause. Makes me feel far less alone as I struggle through much of what has been discussed above. I had no idea that loss of appetite, nausea, and depression would be such a big part of my daily struggle. I know it varies, but on the average, how long does perimenopause take? Just when I think I've experienced the majority of symptoms, something new and nastier pops up.

  • 10 years ago
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    Hello, lostnj! Thanks for posting. So I switched to the .1 Vivelle and Prometrium (I haven't had hyster) and it brought back "aunt flo" which I hadn't had in 2 plus yrs. Also my breasts hurt like crazy! I stopped after 2 or 3 days on that dose. I'm going to give hrt a break for a couple of wks. But my anxiety is rough! I went to my hubby's doc (he takes Paxil CR) and was prescribed the same thing, lowest dose. I am giving AD's one more try because I can't stand facing every day with that horrible anxious feeling inside my stomach. Use Xanax when I need but want a more steady solution. Who knows if this will work. I've tried others and couldn't take the side effects. Uggh. This is so hard. I am currently taking some Xanax with the Paxil because it tends to make me jittery. Please find comfort in that it's been a VERY bumpy road for me, too. I'm taking lots of walks and trying to be kind to myself. I'd love to exchange numbers. Is there a way to do it offline?

    jellybean, I was glad to have found this site, too! I was in peri from 47 to 51, entered menopause, now 53 and now my biggest obstacle is hormonal anxiety. Finding a kind doctor(s) helps a lot. And, honestly, I've learned more from these forums than from any doc!

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    Just an update. Could not take the Paxil CR. Soooo sedating and made me wired at the same time. Was taking Xanax to calm down. Then why take the Paxil, I said! Back to my doc this Wed. I'm hoping for a scrip for Klonopin or cont the Xanax. I know they're addicting but I feel menopause anxiety/panic running my life. I'm fighting back! Still doing my Vivelle and Prometrium but not sure that's doing much good. If I could afford them, I'd sure try pellet therapy. Hope everyone has a good week. I'm trying to keep my chin up here!

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    Hi Cypress...My email is tfrain26@gmail.com Shoot me an email and I'll give you my number. Would like to chat with you and try to help. Hang in there!! : )

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    Someone please help me. I am so miserable! I am scared I am dying! I have tried so much stuff I don't know what to do! And yes I have been in the mental ward over this crap. My family is exhausted! I am afraid of everything! My anxiety is intense and I am on lexapro and valium. Feel ill all the time! Can't function can't shut my brain off

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    Sweetheart...Can you give us a little more information? How old are you? Are you still getting your period? Anxiety is so scary I know how you feel. I know Lexapro made me feel worse, maybe you should consider switching meds. You are not mental but I know you feel you are. Hormones are so powerful and can put you in a tailspin. Try to give a little more information about your health history. Hang in there, drink lots of water and try some deep belly breathing tonight. xoxo Terri

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    I am 46. I had a total hysterectomy in 2005. I woke up with the vivelle dot patch on. In fact, two of them. 1 and a half total. I 38 at the time. I had a complete because of horrible periods and when they went in they found that I had endo severely. At the time I was also taking paxil 40 mg. Xanax occasionally. After had my second child in 1991, something happened to me and we didn't know what it was. But I imagine it was post partum. I ended up in the mental ward because I was having severe panic attacks and started losing touch with reality. I don't know what they put me on but the anti depressant (I don't know) and a total of 1.5 mg of Xanax dosed in three divided doses. I was able to quit taking the Xanax and carry on. But then I ended up on paxil for many years and would only talk Xanax if I was going to fly out something like that. Okay now back to post op. In 2009, I decided because of ignorance that I was going to take myself off of the paxil because didn't feel like it was helping anymore. And I took myself off the patch because didn't think I needed that either. I was totally uneducated about hormones as my doctor who performed the surgery retired. That is when all hell broke lose!! Several stressful events happened in my life back to back and I started Xanax because I didn't know how to cope. My psych had me up to 5 mg a day while I was also starting the bio identical hormones. I got so sick from the Xanax I became anorexic. In 2011, I was so sick. I hadn't slept in two weeks, hadn't was eaten in a week and truly was losing my mind. I had my husband take me to the mental ward because I knew I couldn't live that way any longer. They switched me to valium 20mg and put me on lexapro and seroquel 50xr to sleep at night. Also still trying bio identical hormones by creams while I was in hospital. That was a nightmare in itself. Now here am three years later not doing well again. Hormones are out of wacky, doctor started me on ativan instead of valium and I can tell I am getting sick again. I thought I was having menopausal night sweats but could tell it is different. It is this damn ativan. I have insomnia and extreme anxiety and not eating. I am back on the patch at the(.1mg). And I know I feel lousy because my psych had me up to 4mg of it and that is when hell started happening again. I just realized the pattern yesterday and talked to my husband about the similarities and he agrees! Part menopause and benzo hell. I am so pissed because didn't do this to my self. The freaking doctors have. I would go talk to them about all the stress in my life and they just kept upping benzos and here I am! It is a living hell!!

  • 10 years ago
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    krnkoontz, I am going through my own waking nightmare with menopause and my heart goes out to you and to all of us. I have been taking more Xanax lately just trying to cope. I tried Citalopram 2 yrs ago and could NOT get used to the med. Bad experience. Made my anxiousness worse! I have talking to two diff docs who are suggesting either Cymbalta or Lexapro (cleaner version of Citalopram) or Buspar. I know something has to give here--waking up every morn shaking with anxiety is the pits!

    On the Paxil, my hubby takes that in controlled release form and has for many years. He is an anxiety sufferer and it helps him greatly. It made me very sedated when I tried it recently, but he does sooo well on it. He said it's so much better than the regular immediate release version. I remember when he decided to go off of it (he was feeling so much better) and he ened up in the ER and within a wk was back on Paxil-CR and upped his dose. He's been on it 12 yrs. Have you tried getting back on it? Might be worth a shot and maybe keep small amt of Xanx around to help with transition.

    I am mad at docs, too. They are quick to dismiss menopausal ladies like me.

    lostnj, thanks so much for your contact info. I will definitely write you. You sound like a gal after my own heart. God bless you for your encouragement. Gosh, men are so lucky not to have to deal with this. I look at my teen son and I am thankful he gets to escape this misery! I have yet to go have my hormones tested--I bet that would shed a huge light on what's happening in my body. Blessings to all.

    Btw, I have been reading Hystersisters Menopause Forum just to get their take on different types of hormones. Many of them still take a dose of progesterone or Prometrium to help them feel calmer and sleep better. I thought that was interesting since their docs told them they only needed estrogen.

  • 10 years ago
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    Hello Sisters, I am new here, read your posts & damn, it sure is nice to find you!!
    I wonder if any of you feel slimy when it's hot or humid? I mean, like a frog...it is so nasty!! I am very pale, thankfully, so I get away with being bathed in powder all summer long. I have read that some people are almost "amphibian", I just wonder if it's related to menopause. p.s. I have been in this hell for 7 years, the last year has been much better :)

  • 9 years ago
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    Will we ever feel better? Is this menomonster nightmare forever? I had a hysterectomy 15 years ago with my ovaries left in. But the past four years I've been having the menopause symptoms show up. This year is the worse of the worse.

    I'm slowly getting better but I hate mornings when I am at my worse with the heart palpitations, anxiety, tremors and crying. I even have stuttering some mornings and yes it is part of the horror moan imbalance.

    The brain fog and depression is gone thanks to coconut milk and krill oil.

    But this is hell. I want it gone. I had to retire from baseball last year. I miss my active lifestyle. I am tired of being tired. I just don't want this for years on end. I am dome with it mentally but I can't stop it physically.

    I used to be able to stand in the batter's box and swing at 85 mph fastballs without a flinch. Now the menomonster has killed my athletic confidence. Me, the dare devil one, is totally insecure.

    I want this menomonster out of my body now! My email is areallivepinkbat@aol.com and I would love friends who are as tortured as I am!!!

    Here is a link that might be useful: A Real Live Pink Bat me

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    Hi everyone,It seems like I've had most of everyone's symptoms-is this definately the menopause-my doctor thinks it's depression.

  • 9 years ago

    OMG women cant you figure it out!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had those very same symptoms including wanting to end my life. And then i found a bio-indentical hormone doctor and SHE got me on hormone cream. She put me on seperate creams. progesterone, estrogen, and testosterone although if you have enough estrogen it should be converting to testosterone but if you think it might not start taking DHEA 25mg. Also, for your anxiety take GABA and that will relax you. It may take some tries with you and you doctor but you will get it right. Also, you can go on Dr. John Lee he is a hormone expert and you can google him and he can educate you on bio-indentical hormones. YOU DONT HAVE TO SUFFER AND YOU DONT HAVE TO SETTLE. There is a light at the end of this tunnel. Do the transdermal creams because they dont have to go through the liver or the stomach to be utilized. If you have any questions you can email me. Blueribbonportraits@gmail.com. PLEASE LADIES STOP THE MADNESS NOW.

  • 7 years ago

    Hi there


    Sorry to hear you are having such a rough time. Many of your symptoms sound like mine. Though your labs may not show that you have hypothyroidism you should get checked again by a naturopath or integrative doctor as you may be borderline. Hypothyroidism really plays havoc with many woman at menopause as does adrenal burnout.

    I am 57 have been in menopause for over two years and I too have suffered from mood swings, panic attacks, indigestion, constant pain, severe tendonitis and general malaise. Depression is perhaps the worst part of it all though, as I was normally a very upbeat optimistic person full of vim and vigour. It helps to know that many other woman have made it through this difficult time and come through the tunnel so to speak. I am a painter, singer songwriter and writer and I long to get back to creating. Perhaps this dark night of the should will manifest itself through greater creativity and increased empathy for all of us who suffer terribly at this time of life.


    Best of luck to all of you with finding your equilibrium and regaining your health.


    Pauline



  • 7 years ago

    You are in perimenopause or going thru menopause. I had the exact stuff happen to me and it still happens. The drs tell me my heart is okay. I am on Synthroid for low thyroid and iron pills for anemia, but I still feel like crap. These spells hit me and I get nauseous and woozy and I have awful panic attacks! It is sheer misery and now I am nearly 47 in Sept '17. I am skipping periods and spotting. Right now, I just want to go somewhere and scream and cry and just rage about feeling this crappy. But it keeps going. The old saying is true, "Misery loves company." I hate that we are suffering through this, but it is good not to be alone in it.

  • 7 years ago

    Ah, the feelings of doom. I am so very happy to see that others get these things as well. I thought I was the only one that had them. UGH! I think I can add a new symptom as of the past few days. I have been seeing things that are not there and hearing things that I shouldn't. I am getting OCD with this and I know that where I have insomnia, this makes it more likely that I will see things. And yes, like others, I get that rush of blood in my head and I can hear it in my ears at times. I go back to a new dr in July and plan to unload on her and see what she thinks. I expect the same old crap about being too young for menopause. HAH! My great Aunt started hers in her 30s. On another note, I wonder how many women were put into institutions in the [old days] and given shock therapy because they were going through the change? This crap really sucks!!

  • 7 years ago

    Ladies may I join you in this discussion? I am a young healthy looking 62. And today is my first visit here after looking up adrenaline I sure understand better now

    That's what I have going on MY NATURE'S PACE MAKER.working.

    Adrenaline

    After a stay in icu heart recently everyone finally agreed i am mot crazy.it was.my heart.

    The docs installed is a device catch my heart acting badly is a heart tracker like halter monitor. Under my chest muscles on top of my heart. I can cause it record what just happened.. iam write with excitment because your stories are all so familiar. These stories for me begin after mitral valve repair. 7 years ago. Basic problem ..unless the doc sees the heart behaving badly they deny the problem. All this time we never could catch it

    Last doc said bluntly if we dont see it didnt happen. You must to er

    Well recent at 230 am it woke me up, just as you have described. I went directly to the er They caught the serious thing! Arrithemia and more


    then two days in icu. Now meds have slowed my heart from 70 to 52 while docs decide what to do. Last night I realized I was having an adreilin rush. The same rush I went to a neurologist for help. Over a year and half. Often it also affect my skin. Goose bumps crawling feeling all day long! Well have I got news for him.I was not crazy about that either. my gp I visited last month just to say. I know you don't know what is wrong but I still got it. Knows too

    I sat in neros office two months ago ,,,same thing. I said dr i just want you know ME when I end up in er..and i need you. well it was er straight to icu. Home now with electrical issues.

    Last last night meds have my average at 52 bpm.it woke me. 2 3 am. I use my tricks to get back to sleep.as soon as felt sleep coming on the stomach feeling spread. It woke me up heart pounding.sweat .out of breath!!! Happened several times . then checked average heart rate on my Garmin. 48.

    Average 48 so i was probably lower. Maybe 45! My natural pace maker kicked in every time sleep lowered bpm and I was short on air. Natural pace maker? Adrenaline can't wait to see what was recorded on my device

    Thank you body! Now I think i know what as going on for long time hidden from doc view. Electric shock adrenaline style








  • 6 years ago

    I’m so happy to find this post. I am at my wits end with all this. 2 years ago I had a hysterectomy and they left one ovary. My life has literally been hell ever since. I just want to feel normal again. The depression/anxiety and extreme panic attacks are literally making me feel insane.

  • 6 years ago

    Reading the original poster's post now, after what I know now, these are classic tick disease symptoms. Find a "lyme literate" doctor and get treated.

    Borrelia, babesia, bartonella, all have those symptoms. Don't let anyone tell you you're crazy.

  • 5 years ago

    I wish I had seen this when it was posted. I hope you have found some relief. I can completely relate and it sounds like perimenopausal symptoms. At least your doctor was able to tell you it was menopause related!! I went years with many of the same symptoms and was prescribed all kinds of prescription meds. That only made things worse! I found a natural supplement and it has black cohosh in it as well as many other helpful herbs. It's called internal balance, see smoothtransition.com