Horrible images of my bellowed brother
Three weeks ago I lost my beloved kid brother to a short and horrible illness. I spend last few months, together with his immediate family, caring for him, which means seeing him extremely thin, week, fragile. Nowadays one of my biggest problems are images of him, or his 'ill persona', as evil and violent. The first time it happened was several days before his passing away; for a few milliseconds I had a horrible idea he was about to attack me. Realistically, we loved each other dearly, he was never violent and at that time almost incapable to move. We are both middle-aged.
Those images intensify as the time from his death passes. Somehow it is as I imagine the illness has 'taken over' his body, and with it, he became angry and violent.
I don't want to imagine my dearest brother like this. I don't know whether some stupid movies are responsible for those images. Could someone help me?