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amylou321

My heart is hurting

8 years ago
last modified: 8 years ago

And I can't take much more. Many of you know that I had to put my sweet girl, candy to sleep a couple weeks ago. Well, this morning, Sammy went to join her in doggy heaven. SO called me while I was at work and told me that he was seizing and couldn't stop. Finally, when he did stop, he cried and moaned like a baby all night long. He sat with him on the floor all night until I got home. He couldn't see or stand. He was foaming at the mouth and crying. I took him to the emergency vet and had him put to sleep. I don't even know if he knew I was there. It was much more peaceful than candys passing,but it hurts so much more. Because of the state he was in, i dont think he even knew i said goodbye. Candy was fully conscience and knew I was there for her.

I loved Candy. She was one of my beloved babies. But Sammy was my HEART. He was my first pet. (SO bought him for me when we first started dating,which may be the reason I loved him SOOOOO much) SO is taking this almost as hard as i am. This. Year. Sucks.

I feel crushing guilt,grief, and rage.

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