JOAN SENIOR has got to be the whitest daylily I've seen. Really love it. I left it behind when we moved, but ordered another one. So far it hasn't bloomed. MALAYSIAN MARKETPLACE was pretty when it bloomed here, but the blooms were very small. In comparing it with MARILYN LEE BOCK, the latter had much larger blooms and has been steadily blooming. They are both new to our garden. I hope MM does better next year. Nancy

Chris: INCA PUZZLE has 10 fans and SUMMERTIME IDYLL has only 6. And I bought these as double fans in 2009. I have to say though I think SI would have done better if I put it in a spot where it had more room from the beginning. Hopefully moving it will improve the increase. Debra: RED SLEEVED WARRIOR is really shining this year. I got this from Curt in 2010 and now it is hitting its stride. I think the last couple of rainfalls we've gotten really helped. Avedon: INCA PUZZLE is a favorite of mine here. Always does well and increases nicely. Julia

Thank you everyone. It helps so much to be able to write it all out here. I said before, you are all like my online diary. :) I know I have to let go of things with my dad and I'm really trying to. Hopefully he's up in heaven knowing my babies are on the way (wishful thinking at least). If I am pregnant this round, the baby/ies would be due right around his birthday so it's a little eerie when I think about it! I've had a very lazy week so far but mostly because my medications make me so tired (and hungry!). Your messages mean so much to me. Thank you. And you all will be one of the first to know if it's positive!

I knew when I decided to post this I would be setting myself up to be attacked. Thankfully it didn't happen. I don't feel a need to defend how I handled this, but I do want to share my reasons for doing so. Maybe it will help someone else. My DD and I had talked about the possibility of kidney failure. I have a Living Will in which I make it clear that I don't want any "heroic measures" taken when I get to a similar point in my life. No machines, no tubes, etc. Please just let me go. I felt the same for Lottiecat. I wasn't sure of her age, but it was obvious that her time was running out. I would not subject her to anything like that. Doing so would have been trying to keep her alive for my sake. I could not do that. (And, no, I did not overlook the part about taking her to the vet. I did not take her to the vet.) She is gone now. I still expect her to jump up on my lap when I sit in the recliner and turn on the TV. She knew then she could hold me hostage! Thank all of you for offering me such warm, caring thoughts. They are very much appreciated, even though I still tear up reading them. Sue