Hello, Old Friends! My goodness, I can't believe how tardy this is. I found this thread some time ago and have been meaning to come back and comment. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!! The emails in the hospital were a real pick-me-up. I think I still have them somewhere -- I must find and re-read them some time. Mistress Mary did indeed bring me a water hyacinth in the hospital, and was an amazing help to me during my convalescence, and not only then! She's a real peach. So anyway, yeah, it was an ordeal, not something I'd care to repeat, but I had excellent care and have recovered well, though it's been a long process. What actually happened was that the anticipated 2 surgical days turned into 3, because the neurosurgery part of Day 1 took much longer than anticipated. I was in hospital and rehab for a total of 6 weeks, with a few days home between the second and third operations. I didn't mean to abandon you all. At the time I was more active in a forum for people with spine issues like mine, for obvious reasons, and since then I've been absent because I'm too compulsive and when I'm active here I tend to get nothing else done. I'm currently experiencing one of ponding's worst waking nightmares (muskrats trashed my liner -- agh!), so this seemed as good a time as any to pop in and say my much-belated thank-you's. With a little luck maybe I'll learn to manage my time better and stick around! (Yes, this is really me. I couldn't remember my NorahS login, and I'd rather spell my name forward, anyway.)

Dreams, particularly recurring dreams, are often our nocturnal way of working through conflicts and unresolved issues. The key to interepreting them is to realize that there are no outside pieces - there really weren't any hostas or yard or neighbor or landscapers - everything in the dream is a part of you. A Gestalt therapist would help you sort our what part of you is the irate gardener, what part is the hostas, the hardscape, the "landscaper", the neighbor... and how those parts are in conflict. (on a side note... it is amazing how often in dreams that people like landscapers, mechanics, managers, DMV workers, cops, etc. stand it to bring out our conflicts with God/nature/fate and the unreasonable curves life tosses at us...) One reasonable interpretation would be that the hostas and garden are the part of you that is your current life, including home, marriage, children, work... always with the possibility of improving, adjusting, doing a major refurbishing, or dumping it all and starting over again. Anyone who is married with kids must have days when that lingering underlying question rises, even if we don't ever let ourselves say it out loud - "what if I just dumped all of this and started over?!" Another reasonable possibility is that you had too much pepperoni pizza too close to bedtime...

Ladies may I join you in this discussion? I am a young healthy looking 62. And today is my first visit here after looking up adrenaline I sure understand better now That's what I have going on MY NATURE'S PACE MAKER.working. Adrenaline After a stay in icu heart recently everyone finally agreed i am mot crazy.it was.my heart. The docs installed is a device catch my heart acting badly is a heart tracker like halter monitor. Under my chest muscles on top of my heart. I can cause it record what just happened.. iam write with excitment because your stories are all so familiar. These stories for me begin after mitral valve repair. 7 years ago. Basic problem ..unless the doc sees the heart behaving badly they deny the problem. All this time we never could catch it Last doc said bluntly if we dont see it didnt happen. You must to er Well recent at 230 am it woke me up, just as you have described. I went directly to the er They caught the serious thing! Arrithemia and more then two days in icu. Now meds have slowed my heart from 70 to 52 while docs decide what to do. Last night I realized I was having an adreilin rush. The same rush I went to a neurologist for help. Over a year and half. Often it also affect my skin. Goose bumps crawling feeling all day long! Well have I got news for him.I was not crazy about that either. my gp I visited last month just to say. I know you don't know what is wrong but I still got it. Knows too I sat in neros office two months ago ,,,same thing. I said dr i just want you know ME when I end up in er..and i need you. well it was er straight to icu. Home now with electrical issues. Last last night meds have my average at 52 bpm.it woke me. 2 3 am. I use my tricks to get back to sleep.as soon as felt sleep coming on the stomach feeling spread. It woke me up heart pounding.sweat .out of breath!!! Happened several times . then checked average heart rate on my Garmin. 48. Average 48 so i was probably lower. Maybe 45! My natural pace maker kicked in every time sleep lowered bpm and I was short on air. Natural pace maker? Adrenaline can't wait to see what was recorded on my device Thank you body! Now I think i know what as going on for long time hidden from doc view. Electric shock adrenaline style

I know What you mean, my kids always loved and played with daddy,even just after they had seen him be abusive.I dont know the answer to that.Although my eldest who is 13(she isnt biologically his)but he did bring her up since she was 4 months old and she didnt know any different has her real dad has never been around,she saw alot of the goings on ,always loved him ,untill she got to about 8 or nine and then she changed towards him,and now she absolutly hates him,when my other two kids (his kids)go to see him,she never wants to see him again.She will never forget what he was like,and I hate myself for putting her through it.my second daughter was two when I left him,she too had nightmares all the time,talked about monsters and stuff when she woke,but she still loved daddy,and still does.Im convinced it was the shouting and abuse she was witnessing.Now she is four and sleeps soundly,she does have the odd one or two every so often.google parents fighting hurt children,im sure nightmares will pop up somewhere.I may be wrong about your daughter because nightmares arnt uncommen,but Im sure thats why mine had them.