I am so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it can be since losing my husband of 41 yrs. There is nothing I can tell you that will help, it just takes time. Nothing can replace that person or love we had. It will slowly, very slowly get easier.
Keep busy so its not on your mind as much. You can also write her a letter and tell her your thoughts. Journaling has helped others.

You can have the comfort of knowing you will see her again and she will come for you when its your time.
I'm sorry I can't be of more help. If things get too bad seek counseling. Hospice offers it at no cost, and there are many online groups where you can just talk.

I'm so sorry.

Losing your mother in any circumstances is bad enough, but you & your dad went through a lot to be with her throughout her last illness.

Being there when someone passes is an intense.experience, one that likely will leave residual sensations like the sounds that you mention, very much like post-traumatic stress.

When I have "sounds" in my head, whether it's thinking that I hear someone who's gone or a bad story on the news, or even if it's an 'earworm' of Stars & Stripes Forever, I turn up the volume on my own choice of music;
it helps.

One big important thing to remember is that time changes everything, time heals everything, time makes the garden grow.

You can't will a cut finger to heal;
it has to heal in its own time.

It's only been a couple of months;
tend to your symptoms (play the music, etc) to get through this, & trust time to soothe your spirit.

I know it sounds odd right now, but the day will come when you're grateful & glad that, whatever it cost you, you were there for her & with her.

Take care of yourself.

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Keep the good memories close in your heart. My mom has been gone 10 years, and I still miss her. Deepest condolences.

Thanks for all your kind words...I've already had to go thru her belongings and not much has gptten easier...but I appreciate your wisdom and thoughts

I am so sorry for your devastating loss. Five years ago in August I also lost my Momma. This web site and the wonderful people that visit it often were my lifeline to keep going.

It has been a long, long journey.....she was a loss so deep that I thought I would never recover from. I will always, always miss my Momma but I have come to realize how very blessed I was to have had for the 40 years I did.

There is not much that anyone can say or write that will make the pain any easier. It was just such a comfort knowing that what I was feeling was normal and that other people have been in my shoes.

The first few years were completely horrible, the darkest days I have ever experienced. I would go off by myself and fall into a black hole and felt like I never wanted to come out. I had such a difficult time learning how to live a life that was completely different than what I had known.

No one can say how long you should grieve and no one knows how deeply it will affect you. I can only say from my own experience that time will not heal the wound.....it will only make the throbbing less intense. When I close my eyes, I can still see her as perfectly as if she were here with me so for a long time, I lived in my mind. I did a lot of praying and leaned on my faith and then one day....I realized the sun was shining again.

From this experience I have learned to be more present in the moment. This is how memories are created and in the end, when someone passes, that is all we have to keep of them so I try real hard to collect as many as I can and enjoy every moment I can with the people that I love.

I wish the best for you on your journey and hope that when you close your eyes, you realize she has never really left you at all.

Blessing & hugs to you....

I lost my Mom, my best friend on June 10, 2011. I know, for me it took some time to remember the good memories. The scary and sad memories flood first but, with time you will remember the happier times you shared. I'm sorry for your loss. I still miss her everyday but, I strive to do as she would have done. She would want you to be happy. To remember the love and laughter.