Childless Parents...where do we belong?

13 years ago

Hi,

Just wondering if there are any childless parents out there? For any of you suffering a loss of any kind, you have my sympathy. I have been a poster for a long time here, and was just wondering who out here is a parent who has lost a child or all children, be it from pregnancy or infant loss, to losing a child of any age. With Mother's Day nearing, Father's Day as well, even if you have surviving children, do you ever feel like you don't "feel right", don't quite fit in? Would love to hear from all, some of you I can remember from a long time back. Also, anyone who has lost one or both parents may identify with

this subject as well. Both my parents are gone, in my 40's, and both children are deceased as well, one full-term stillbirth in my 20's, and lost my 18 year old daughter in an auto accident nearly 5 years ago. So, I am well-aquainted, unfortunately, with grieving persons. Thank you for responding.

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mariend
13 years ago
Even though I have children, etc. just a thought. There are many parents out there who for various reasons have lost communication with the children. There are many who are in assisted care homes and/or nursing homes that again for the different reasons due to distance/or relationships have lost contact with the children. Maybe you could either vist those people (after checking with the homes), or check with churches etc, you could have a nice quiet meal someplace that does not have alot of family activity. Encourage pictures and/or letters to bring back memories, good or bad. Also with so many military members away from home, these parents may like to get together. If you are active in a church, the pastor or other leaders may have ideas too. You have memories to share. Remember Mother's Day/Father's Day can be celebrated thru out the year with friends and relatives remembering those we have lost in the past.
mboston_gw
13 years ago
I am not a childless parent but I am still dealing with a stillborn grandchild (at 27 weeks) two years ago in April. There was never a service for her for reasons that I won't go into but I truly feel that no one had any closure with the loss. I feel that I am the only one who is still grieving although my son and DIL are probably doing so privately, which is the way I am forced to do so. I have my ways of remembering her all the time.

But God does bring blessings as they now have a grandson who is 10 months old and is the delight of both sets of grandparents as well as his mommy and daddy. Luckily we all live in the same town and were able to share in both of these times, sad and happy.
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eb2007
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Hi, I wanted to let you know that I feel exactly the same way - as if I no longer fit in anywhere. My only child, my beautiful daughter, who was 18 years old and 8 months died in 2004 and I still feel lost and alone. I hope you still check out this site and read posts. I would very much like to hear from you. You can email me.
gollygwhiz
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