My darling husband passed away 15 days ago. We knew each other for 8 years. He was very vibrant and full of life, had a good job house and car. Internally though he was suffering from chronic depression and was addicted to alcohol for many years even before i knew him. It got worse when he lost his mother 3 years ago. He would constantly talk about killing himself, praying that God would take his life. It was like seeing him die everyday. I prayed that he comes out of his depression, went to the psychiatrist to get meds for him, put him in rehab, gave him unconditional love but nothing seemed to work. He stopped eating and would just drink and watch the tv the whole day and night. Any attempt at communication was met with silence. He did not want to talk about anything. He gradually became so weak that he was bed ridden. I would coax him to eat or at least have some soup or juice but it was an uphill task. 3 years and 10 hospitalizations later he is no more. His body and organs were so weak that it could not process any medicines. I just wish that he would be alive today maybe he would have made an effort at living. People tell me that he is free from his worries and depression. I hope he is finally at peace. People say that your love was one sided but i know that he loved me and needed me. He would feel more depressed when i was not around him. I would call him my sunflower. In the end i feel he could not help himself. I miss my darling a lot.

Would it be appropriate or possible to have someone else there to take the picture, to get the look on her face when she realizes what it is, as you'll be busy with the giving? ole joyful

Josh Thank you. I didn't realize that large plant was Crosby's - looking at it now I see that leaves are bit smaller, comparing to trunks. Must be quite old? I have few, but they are much smaller. My oldest plant is only about 4 or so yrs old, grown from small cutting IIRC. They seem to have much smaller leaves - unless I have them mis-IDed. Here is a bunch, all grown from cuttings from original plant: Here is a comparison of leaf size; 'regular' C.o. and Crosby's: My oldest plant is only 12.5" from soil line, and it is in 4.5" pot: I don't remember if it is one base with 2 trunks or 2 separate below soil line...I have pruned it a lot, and rooted cuttings in 1st photo.

Crotalaria spectabilis. https://plants.ces.ncsu.edu/plants/crotalaria-spectabilis/