Renee, Go back to this forum's main page where all the current threads are listed and find the one called "Bt San Diego Names for Hannah". On that thread you'll find a list of the most common products that contain Bt "San Diego" and I linked a photo of one that is usually pretty easy to find. You can get them at nurseries that carry organic products, feed stores, and some big box stores like Wal-mrt, Lowe's, Home Depot, etc. If you have a local hardware store, they might have it. If you can't find it locally, you can always order online. The key is to get the right kind of Bt. There are many Bt products and three are commonly sold/relatively easy to find. Bt 'Kurstaki' is the one that controls caterpillars. Bt 'San Diego' is the one that controls leaf beetles, including Colorado Potato Beetles. Bt "Israelensis" (and I may not have spelled it right) is the one that you put in ponds and other areas of standing water to control mosquito larvae. Each form of Bacillus thuringensis is a bacteria that attacks only the pests listed on its label. That is one of the great things about it--it targets the pest but doesn't harm beneficials. Good luck with the CPBs. Just hand-pick them and either squish them by grinding them into the ground with your shoe, or drop them into a dish of soapy water (I use a Cool Whip bowl) as you walk through the garden. I don't like touching bugs with my hands, so I buy medical-type latex gloves by the box, and wear them for buggy chores. LOL Also, check the UNDERSIDE of leaves for clusters of CPB eggs. If you find them, scrape them off the leaf into the soapy water. I usually use a trowel to scrape them off. I'll link a photo of CPB eggs so you'll know what to look for. Colorado Potato Beetles can often be found not only on potatoes, but also on tomatoes, eggplant, peppers and even on related flowers like datura (jimsonweed). If not controlled, they can devour the foliage and destroy your crops. Dawn Here is a link that might be useful: CPB Eggs on UNDERSIDE of a Leaf

Is this the desk you have also? It converts to a dining room table 41"wide x 66"long by unfolding it, then swiveling it 90 degrees. We have the chair also but it is not in the picture. Ours is in used condition because I used it for several years. We purchased from a family in Duluth, Minnesota in the 1970s. My wife thinks they told us this desk/table was made by a furniture maker in Duluth, Mn. But it could be that a furniture store in Duluth, Mn may have sold it to this family. It is mahogany wood and has 4 swievel casters so it turns pretty easily. Any additional information would be appreciated. I will also post a second picture that shows it as a dining room table.

I think you can make some distinctions between "organizing" and simple daily cleanup that you might do as part of living in a family--doing the dishes, putting away laundry and so forth. --I know they're related in the sense that underlying order helps with maintenance and cleanup, but that's something for your own home; really, you don't need to clean out the attic in your parents' home or throw out their plastic containers. So it is definitely not healthy going into drawers and closets in attempt to "organize"--these actions are part of the parent-parent-child power struggle and you are seeing yourself in the wrong role. You might try a family meeting, but that could be hard without a neutral party such as a family counselor--it would be again, the 21-yr old being the family/marriage counselor. It could be done if you were able to use it simply to state your discomfort and what you feel comfortable doing vs. not, and to ASK for their support. You wouldn't be able to lay down any ultimatums, such as "you have to..." It sounds like you are already at a point at which you would need to have conversation with your dad alone, to some extent, in that you have identified him as a driving force requesting you to fix your mother--if you can't talk with your dad or if he doesn't "get it" in conversation with you alone, he won't get it in the presence of your mother. But, see, you would have to really WANT to stop being in the middle in order to propose to your father, here, I can do this and this, but I would prefer it if you would not ask or expect me to that and that. You could stay there if somehow you are able to change YOURSELF--to develop some serenity and distance from these struggles and just smile and fix an occasional meal, do daily and weekly chores as a good citizen of the family, and, if you really like organizing, graciously do so whenever your mother gives you a target drawer, etc (assuming she doesn't later accuse you of doing it wrong). Some people can manage a year like that. But, another approach as mentioned is to get out your pencil and paper and calculuate your way into moving out and continuing school on your own even if at a slower pace. You would be the one to know whether your father would be willing to discuss tuition or a loan if you move out. But, it can be done with or without their financial support. You could do either approach, and it's not completely wrong to stay to get tuition if you can manage all these other emotions and situations, but you can't really stay and stew about why your parents won't change. It isn't really good for your siblings to watch that dynamic, either, because it certainly won't be a successful strategy for them to follow as they get older. One of the reasons why protecting your siblings isn't a helpful rationale is that, under that reasoning, you would have to stay there until they all leave home.

Claire: Good thread! I wish I had a basement to become a hot spot! We can't store much in the attic either due to extreme heat in the summer, so I really have to work on clutter containment. Once it came to me like clouds parting and a light shining in my brain. Finish what needs to be done each day. Really, like a heavenly voice! What an insight. Well, now you all know what a nut I am. But it's true. I can't pare down my life enough to pace things a day at a time. I can't even think about breaking things down into manageable sub-tasks. I really need to FLY, I guess and just focus on getting things done. Claire, isn't it great to have the remodel over? I really don't post much on the Kitchen Forum anymore, I'm so burned out. All the things that were so important a year ago, the details of my new kitchen... all of it has nearly beat the stuffing out of me. It will take months before I will feel normal again. Anyway, I have a five year old to put to bed, so goodnight!