I have lost my Mother, my best friend
I am new to this forum and just need a place to express my overwhelming grief over loosing my mother last Saturday.
I know all children feel their mothers are special but I have always believed that when I was born I took a small piece of my Momma's soul with me. Even as a small child I have always felt that I had a very limited amount of time with my mom and I have always felt the need to take care of her. My mom was the most amazing human being I have ever been blessed to have in my life. She was my best friend, my confidant, my security, the very first person to fall in love with me and she always made me feel very, very special. I cannot even believe I am here at this time writing this and the grief has been unbearable at times.
She battled cancer three times. By very slim odds she survived invasive melanoma cancer, bone cancer requiring removal of her spine and a 12" rod inserted and at this time was given 6 mo. to one year to live. She lived another 14 years. She finally succumbed to complications from lung cancer at age 64 last Saturday.
I have always prayed to God that I would never ask that he not take my momma, only that he help me to prepare my heart. It has sure been very difficult to find the brightness of the days now. I know she is no longer suffering, and for this we are blessed, but I feel as if I have a huge void inside of me that noone can come close to filling. She was such a huge part of my life. Eight years ago I made the decision to purchase a home that had a special room added on for Momma and I have taken care of her since.
I promised her this journey was ours together and I stayed to the very end. I was with her when she left, laying beside her, holding her hand and singing to her. It was very beautiful and at the same time, very heartbreaking. I could not find it within me to leave her and I don't know where I am now or how to find my way back.
I have come to realise that in this life the only valuable commodity we have is TIME. No amount of money can buy back a minute from last week. In memory of my Momma, please be very wise in who you spend your time with. We all think we can put things off until tomorrow, we will have time. One day you may find you don't have as much time as you thought. Thank you for your time.
In loving memory of -
Judith Ann Turner
July 19, 1944 - August 9, 2008
A beautiful, caring, courageous human being
Her eldest daughter -
Lisa Marie Watson