thank you all for yr sympathy! yeah it was mis-communication, and the other person - English is not their 1st language. I had given up the plot in 2011, and in 2013 when I requested it, someone had signed up for it. Which is perfectly legit. I explained to the person that I had flowers there that I'd had for 10 years, and that there were other perfectly good plots available which had nothing in them. So to them, they were going to start over, so it made no difference. They agree to switch plots. I was so happy! knew what I had that would be coming u in the plot, and I was planning my garden. I went there one day, and there they were- they had dug the whole thing up! so - intent or accident, mis-communication? ...anyway, here I am starting over. I was heart-broken, but then I got over it. can't be undone, right? So someone has offered me Yvonne seeds, and I sent off for some blue perennial salvia seeds, and I even ordered some salvia plants. life goes on. but sympathy helps. :)

Hi Susan, I'm so sorry you lost your emails! The list for me was nearly complete, only iron cross oxalis, acidanthera and fulva iris were left off. Pretty impressive you were able to reconstruct so much! See ya tomorrow! ~Heather

OK- found answer to own question...sorry

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