I am so sorry.. The pain is still fresh for the both of us.. Your website is beautiful! He would be proud of it, I'm sure.. Remember that he will be with you during graduation. Right next to you, look for a sign, I'm sure you will see something today..I have to remind myself that Dad wouldn't want me being sad..He didn't like that..He would always try to cheer me up..Remember those moments.. I'm facing a birthday party on Sun. that I'd rather not have..But I'd have a very disappointed 6 yr old little girl if I don't do it..He loved the kids and the parties, the kids were his drive in life, one of them..He would drive 2 hrs each way to come and visit sometimes for an hour and go home..Christmas will be tough too... We had the picture perfect Night before Christmas ritual going on. He would read that story, I would put the cookies in place and hang the stockings. He would hang around while I wrapped the presents and he would help me eat cookies. Last Christmas he was sick and in the hosptial from the 14th to Jan 5th or so..Little did I know, it would be his last..I questioned it, but everyone said I was overreacting, he'll be fine..Then in April, they tried to take out the cancer and found all through out his body! I was right!!! I'm having my moments too...Good luck today.. Keep in touch. Heather

Thank you all. I forgot to tell you my sister's name. When you are offering prayers, they are for Phyllis. She has been so upbeat and positive during this fight with lung cancer (for the past 3 years or so) but she's having a very hard time right now. I think she's afraid of the unknown, for the first time. I know your prayers and the prayers of many others are surrounding her and that they are helping her.

Nil, thank you for answering. As much as I would love the convenience of a one shot done application, I did some googling and I have to agree with Vladimir, I am weary of the toxicity of imidicloprid. I also have a cat, so that makes it even more dangerous. But I thank you for taking the time to answer :) . Vlad, you have no idea. My husband is the mountain of a guy who refuses pain meds in any situation not involving a bone poking out, but he was in so much pain morphine wasn't even strong enough to give him relief. I don't think I will ever forget his cries of agony at the ICU the first 24 hours. They kept him 7 days, 6 days hooked to an IV drip. . You are right that it is a lot of work, and I am exhausted beyond belief and completely emotionally drained. But at least, he's at home, now, and getting better. One day at a time, and I hope I don't collapse in a little puddle and fall asleep on the floor in the middle of the day :) . God bless, . Atheen

Been in hospital again for several weeks, and home again. Today I went to water aerobics for the first time in a year, YEAH