The thread about pictures of strangers got me, and others, no doubt, thinking of you and your wonderful art collection. You are missed.
Oh. So kind and ..I probably won't get used to you thinking about me at all.
I'm in Israel. (or at least what's left of "I". lol)
I was in the required quarantine for some time but was able to cut it short with additional test.
That's good because just in a few days, my Mom was released from the hospital. She's very weak, and in the wheelchair..she can take several slow steps with a walker, for now. She can't be left alone, and I'm of very lowly opinion of NII right now. After two months of asking they gave her only 10 hours of help (there's a special law here about that) per week. They didn't bother to come and see for themselves even..
She can't bathe..well for now she can't do most of the things.
We're hoping for rehabilitation, but won't be full, and will be slow, as she went through two surgeries, etc,etc.
For now it's a mess..the caregiver company sent a very nice lady to help her bathe, but it was temporarily, as this particclar lady is busy with other clients. Now they're looking for somebody else.
So I'm here 24/7, and frankly-I'm afraid to fall..I mean literally..
That'd be a huge burden on my brother who already took upon himself medical, most of errands outside the house, and whatnot.
The mentioned above NII also took my medical insurance while I was in States(why would one do that when you know very well borders are closed, and it doesn't depend on me whether I can fly in or not?)
I didn't have it for years, of course, while living abroad, which is natural..but as I was recognized as a resident last year-they gave it to me, and then swiftly took it away.
Last year already was catastrophic for my health, and now I have to fight them and prove to them purity of my intentions or whatever.
While what I want for real-is to spit in their direction and to tell them I'd rather die on a street than ask them for anything.
But seeing how I'm needed, -I can't afford to spit, or curse, or whaver my heart truly desires for these guys. And their treatment of my mother, who btw worked until she was 78, after surviving 3 stage cancer etc. It's npt like they're giving her a gift..
Here I must add that they've gotten significantly worse lately...it's not that I remember them all covered with fairy dust, and having wings, but it seems that now they're completely out of touch, or control, or anything.
What else? I'm extremely not interesting to talk with(to put it mildly), it's very hard to concentrate, so it's hard to read..I try, I just can't do so, not for long anyway because I need to run back and forth all the time, or talk to Mom, or deal with folks coming and going.
I miss my husband and kids. Tremendously.
With this new surge of Corona, I'm not sure already whether they'd be able to come and visit (that was the plan). I have a bad feeling they'll close the borders here around High Holidays..I hope I''m wrong too.
It's awfully hot here. There is an old song here, it's named "Heat of July-August".
So, it's heat of July -August..
The good thing-I can't afford to cry, not with my Mom here...keeps one in shape so to say))
That post was long as always and very not interesting.
I hope you forgive me that though, as you usually do
I love you.
Please stay healthy and safe above all.
Yes, I’ve been wondering too. Zalco, thanks for doing this. Hopefully April will respond.
I've been thinking of you too, April. I hope all is well with you and yours. Sending you love.
Think You Know ugly? Think Again.
see what you guys think these tiles are ..I think glass
Know what I think! What do you think? (very long)
Do you think, and rethink, and think again about your choices?
April, glad to hear from you, and terribly sorry about your circumstances. But it must be comforting to you that you're able to be with your mother at this time. It’s outrageous that the medical and insurance systems can and do get away with poor service like that.
Please take care of yourself. It must be difficult on all fronts, missing your family, the cruel summer, the pandemic-related difficulties, health …
If you ever want to share or just come up for air, we are here for you. Take good care.
Oh April I am sorry to hear how deeply stressful this time is for you and your family. Its bad enough the pandemic continues its rage but then the personal life issues superimposed … it truly is too much.
I send my thoughts of strength and hope for a better August! We here can only imagine how difficult it is for you all. Please know that you are held close . c
Sending hugs your way to you and your mother. I hope the medical system does right by you both!
It sounds so stressful. I hope you are using breathing techniques or something to help you de-stress a little bit. Hope you get to see your family soon.
Thanks so much for the update however difficult it must be for you. I didn't realize that you had returned to Israel but I'm sure that you are a comfort to your Mother. I sympathize with your dealings with the health system - it can be wearying under the best of circumstances. Sending prayers that your family will be able to visit soon and remember that we're always here to listen.
Thank you for updating- sorry it's been so trying. I hope knowing that we are sending positive vibes your way might help. We are thinking of you.
April, you remain in our hearts. Thank you so much for checking in. I'm so sorry for the situation you're having to deal with. It must be terribly stressful and wearing on you.
For you I pray for strength, wish away the stress and send hugs. I'd send ice cream but it would melt. I hope your family can visit. Are there ongoing conversations with your husband and brother for her long term care? At some point, adult children must put their foot down (stomp loudly!!) and become the parent's parent. Do what's best not only for her, but for you and your family.
April, thank you for your update. You will always be in our hearts and on our minds. Your mother is lucky to have you there with her. Keep your strength and keep being an advocate for her and for yourself and your family. I pray for brighter days ahead and that your family can visit.
April, my word, any ONE of the things you wrote about, brings about major stress. You are dealing with a LOT! ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))
Sending thoughts of strength, courage and comfort your way!
Oh, ((April)) I am so sorry you are facing all these hurdles. Any one would be enough to test you but all together it's beyond imagining. I hope you are able to get the NII to recognize your/your mom's need and at least get adequate help. Wishing you strength to endure and please know you are loved.
April, I adore your posts and if I met you in person I'm pretty sure I would adore you as a person even more.
Life is so unbearably hard sometimes. Then add in the stress of taking care of an aging and ill parent, and wow. I did it for both of my parents and the stress is brutal.
I know saying, "hang in there" is so trite, but I mean it. Care-taking is so hard, but some day....you can look at yourself in the mirror and feel good about your efforts. I am not a natural caretaker and it was hard for me - but I did the very best I could and when it was all over, after some time had passed...I was proud of myself.
You're there, you care, and you are trying. You are a good soul.
Oh, April, you and your family are in my prayers.
April, you are amazing for the gift you give of yourself in caring for your dear mother.
Blessings, sweet April. Your strength amazes me. Lots of hugs from Kentucky!
April, caring for your mom is really hard and wonderful. Try to find ways to care for yourself. If you don't care for yourself, you can't care for your mom. I hope you and your brother can get more help. Good thoughts are being sent your way.