How do you go on??
I lost my 19 year old Matt on July 4th. He broke his neck in a swimming accident and nearly drowned. He died after 19 days from lung complications from the near drowning. Had he lived, he would have been paralyzed from the neck down which I know he could have NEVER accepted. I found myself praying to God to give the pain of losing him to me rather than having him to live like that. Now that he's gone, I just can't forgive myself. I miss him so much - but I know, had he known about the paralysis, his heart would have been so broken - and I just couldn't stand the thought of it. I just don't know how I am going to go on without him. AFter 3 months, it just gets worse and worse each day. I have 2 other children (grown) and they should be enough to make me want to stick around - but somehow, they just aren't. How do you go on?